DL: So can I be honest...

...the past show in memphis was a bit disappointing. People have been asking "Hey Darnell, how was the show!" I put on a fake smile and say "It was great, i had a blast." When in reality only one person show up to the memphis show. ONE! I played to a crwod of one for about 40 minutes. Then about 5 others (whom I sincerely appreciate) walked in for the show, better late than never. But while I was sitting there playing to that one innocent fan of my music, I began thinking...what I am doing wrong? Now listen, this is NOT a pity party b/c I throw those enough by myself. But I was asking myself, maybe my music's not as good as I thought. Maybe I'm reaching for something that's just not there. You know my song "Red, Yellow, Green"...it feels like i'm on yellow looking towards red RIGHT in the middle of a tour that's supposed to be GO GO GO! Maybe I do need to just stop and start pitching myself to major labels and not worrying about touring and trying to increase my fanbase with this whoel sTarbucks thing. Just being honest... I mean this starbucks thing has the potential to be something really great. But i don't wanna be lying to people saying it is waht it isn't. This is HARD!! REALLY HARD!! The flyer look nice and the tourdates look great, but driving 5 hours for one person is draining on the heart. Again, no pity, just being honest. maybe it's the wrong timing... maybe i'm not the one to make this starbucks history (i mean corporate did turn me down for assistance in coming together to do this, NO i'm not sponsored by corporate, this is hard work for every store!)... maybe memphis was just a bad case of "i was coming the see u but..." My songwriting teacher would always say "U've never played a gig 'til u play to tables and chairs." well i can say this, i've played a gig.

haven't lost the faith, just being honest...

DL...pics from from last weeks shows coming tomorrow probably.